that little voice
My addictions are many, sorry to say, and I rarely pull them out to analyze, evaluate, contemplate, or do something about.
Rather, I view them, identify one or two, and sigh with acceptance that yes, I have them and am reminded I won’t take any action to alleviate them.
You see, my addictions give me peace and a sense of routine. I know at 6:30 in the morn my dogs are going start stirring requiring me to get up walk through the house and return to my bed where they both have gone back to sleep taking up the space I had just vacated.
This is an addiction because instead of telling them to hush I get up, do my walk around and return for another 30 minutes of slumber.
My big addiction is playing games on my computer. I don’t play those ‘shoot and kill’ ones or the military apps or anything that produces a desire to take action to flow through my veins. No, I’m perfectly happy with a game of mahjong, or Mexican Train, or Sudoku: those that require little thought so I can watch/listen to the news or the Olympics.
In other words, thoughtless, meaningless, non stimulating, mind-numbing, busy work with my hands.
Some people will knit, or crochet, or use the TV remote to exercise their fingers, darting from one channel to another at the speed of sound as they let their minds amble through a maze of images, useless ideas, and random wants. I also have an addiction to laziness.
I also have an addiction to laziness. If my days get too full with Zoom meetings, group game days, discussion groups, dog walking, filling the humming bird feeder, or nap taking, I become frantic because I desperately need to just sit and do nothing.
As mentioned before, accomplishing anything is not on my ‘must do’ list. I do not want to challenge the items I consider vital:
1. Sitting
2. Napping
3. Walking dogs
4. Eating
5. Playing games
6. Reading (if I can stay awake)
7. Watching Rachel
The list is fairly short, but each one might be called an addiction since that is what I do on my busy days. Or feel I ‘should’ do. I do try to remind myself of the old saying: “Don’t should on yourself’.
Seems like a good slogan to follow, get rid of those ‘shoulds’ and stick to my addictions.